birthday week

The SU gang met up on wednesday (25/9) for an advance celebration!

We ate a shitload of food at Tongluk- courtesy of Ziwen whose mom happened to be the manager of the restaurant.

The siewmai was amazing honestly hehe food on the brain again.

After all the food, they surprised me w a birthday cake and a message in chinese.

Ashamed to say I couldn't understand half of it but the translation made the atmosphere even more lively.

Even though I was embarrassed, I was happy. 

I was thrilled about the gift and their sweet sweet company.

The two girls left us to be alone after a while and we went to the roof of vivo to bask in the sun (not literally but ya)

I love our little do nothings - the small talks, the deep conversations, the silence and the occasional make outs.

I've never felt so right, so myself. 

Well, that concludes my wednesday.

Skyped Aron on thursday (26/9) for God knows why.

Got yelled at for talking to him till 1 but it was worth it.

Oddly, that was the highlight of my day.

And that concludes my thursday.

My dance girls and I planned to meet at 4 on friday (27/9) but guess what, they were late for an hour but all is forgiven because they surprised me with a cake and gifts! 

They really are the best bunch of people I can ever hope for.

They never fail to make trainings fun to go to. 

However, the best news for that day was that I got into Production's Hip Hop item!

Extremely excited to learn and perfect the whole choreography :)

And that concludes my friday.

Princess gang bang on Saturday (28/9) to celebrate both mine and j's birthday!

So glad all 6 of them could make it :)

The birthday girls were forced to wear our tiaras the whole time we were in the zoo.

Most of the children were staring at us, it was super embarrassing.

But I wouldn't have it any other way to spend time with them. 

Each of them, I treasure them differently and everything that happened this year made me cherish them even more, especially with Kelley.

The bffl and I have been through so much this year and I'm so glad she's still in life. 

She the one I'm most afraid to lose and I thank God everyday she's by my side. 

I have to admit, I was dreading it the night before but I'm glad this day turned out wonderful.

That concludes my saturday.

Sunday (29/9), my actual birthday, started amazingly.

Aron surprised me by appearing at my house void deck with two cakes.

I was genuinely shocked and touched that he would do such a thing.

I just thought wow what a stupid boy but I love his mushy ways of showing his love for me. 

Everything was rushed and I was still in disbelief an hour later that that actually happened to me, like I only ever saw those in movies.

Church was the best as usual!

Jeremy delivered his promise and got me flowers (one of my favourite gift this year hehe)

Natalie came as well and that made me even happier.

After church, we walked down and that was when he asked.

He was rather cute about it and I just had to tease him, couldn't help myself.

Got a small durian cake from Kerilyn and of course, I was touched because she went through all that trouble to get it and light the candle as well.

She's one of my greatest blessing whom I'm extremely thankful for.

We were left alone once again after she went home to study, and we went to the playground outside NBSS to have one of our do nothings again.

It was especially special to me, I don't know why.

I just love how comfortable we are with each other.

As cheesy as it sounds, I have to say it.

When we look at each other in the eyes, I can see that he cares for me.

I can see he's sincere about his words, he's real with me.

And I know I can trust him, that I'm safe with him.

I love this feeling.

I love this feeling he gives me, the way he makes me feel.

I'm excited to see him all the time, the way my heart still races every time he holds my hand, every time his arms are around me, or how I just love to lose myself in his kisses, and it's just me and him in that moment.

I blush when I talk about him (credits to my friends who pointed that out to me), I'm still shy whenever he compliments me.

I will never have the courage to admit this to him face to face but I pray he knows even if I don't say it.

I sound like a stupid kid having a crush but it's really how I feel - the luckiest girl alive.

I want to make him feel as blissful, I want to protect him.

The duration may have been short but hey, we've got a long way to go and it's comforting to know that God is working in his life as well. 

Truly, he was and is my best present of all.

I just hope he's as crazy about me (and will not lose this craze anytime soon) as I am about him, though I'd hate to admit that.

It took me a while to accept him, for him to be a big part of my life but I got there in the end.

This feeling is so foreign but I'm taking a leap of faith and welcoming it with open arms because it's Aron.

Anyway, got home and the family celebrated my birthday got it.

Received a mini lecture but I'm determined to do this.

Even if there's a lesson to be learnt, I'm willing to take the risk.

So that concludes my sunday.

An unforgettable birthday, a lovely week, an eventful month.

Learning how to take each day as it comes, trusting God and His plans for me.

For not my will, but His be done :)

penny for my thoughts

"It's the little things."

A phrase I heard one too many times this year.

But it never hit me as hard as it did today - in a positive way.

I'm afraid, of numerous things.

I'm afraid of butterflies.

I'm afraid of not being on time when I should be.

I'm afraid of mismatching my outfits.

But I'm terrified that your affection for me would fade one day.

I give.

That's what's making me hesitant of accepting your actions towards me; your generosity and your protection.

Part of me tells me to let myself fall for you because I am safe in your hands.

Part of me tells me to reject your offers because if it turns out to be just infatuation, I wouldn't be hurt as much.

Like, I want to know what's going on in your life.

And I was surprised that I felt a little jealous when you mentioned you told your ex girlfriend your family issues and not me.

I didn't want to pry because I wanted you to tell me willingly.

But I don't have the rights to feel that way, you see?

I'm not anyone to you.

It's adorable how shy you get when you talk about me, all smiles and whatnot.

It makes me feel like I'm the luckiest girl on earth.

At that moment, I dare to say "I want to be with you".

I wanna hold your hand and when we hug, I never wanna let you go, you know?

However, when I'm in my bed at night, that courage fades and "Are you sure?" fills my mind.

Bffl has a good vibe from you because she can tell that you're sincere.

She says she feels right by handing me over to you.

It's reassuring to me, honestly.
I wouldn't know what to do without her.

Also, I've been praying about this.
Just for God to show me a sign that he sent you to me, to make me a better person.
I've got nothing so far.
I'm still waiting though.
In His time :)

...

Sigh.

Show me?
Show me I'll be taking a step in the right direction by letting you become a big part of my life.