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bulbasaur to ivysaur

So yesterday was Student Union day camp! 

Since I stayed up till 3AM watching Survivors Caramoan the night before, I was extremely tired the next morning. 

We reached school and found out we're all in different groups so nonetheless, I felt even less thrilled for the events of the day.

During the introduction games, my group was just like *crickets*. 

But, I'm not quite sure how, Grace, Austine and Ashraf and I bonded extremely well. 

I was already sleepy from the beginning but being with them had my stomach aching from laughter.

From the throwing of leaves in the unsuspecting Ash to Austine's scare. 

They gave me to energy to continue playing the games and eventually, we all got wet.

I dare to say Grace, Fatimah and I were the only sporting girls in the group who dared to play all the games. But I choose to believe every single Bulbasaur member had fun.

Though they kept poking fun at my height, they were caring as well.

When there was a sudden downpour during lunch, Austine offered me his dry seat while he took my place closer to the rain. At that moment, he just gave me a brotherly feeling like damn, I wish he was my brother.

Needless to say, they know who my eye candy is and Grace was soooooo excited for me, I don't even know why ahaha.

Pray they keep their mouths shut. 

All in all, I really had fun.

They gave me the energy boost I needed to last the day.

Thankful for such people in my life though only for a short moment.

rekindled friendship

It's just the feeling of a rekindled friendship that got me excited, I guess.

We were close, then we grew apart. But now, I am beginning to feel the connection we once had, again.

Up till now, I'm not exactly sure why we were so distant when we were physically so close to each other everyday. Now that we're so physically far apart, we're starting to inch closer to one another more and more. 

I have to say I really love this. 

uglified

Labour day (01/05)- the day my self esteem was at its lowest. 

I became the guinea pig for my sister's little fashion inspiration and the outfit looked great. But I don't. 

It took great courage to step out of the house, I'm not even kidding. 

On the way to town, I happened to glance up at my reflection in the glass and I was horrified at my image. At that moment, tears welled up and negative thoughts about my appearance flooded my mind. 

And that scared me because I see myself as a rather optimistic person. 

Within those few minutes, I couldn't think of any reason why anyone wanted to acknowledge me as their friend. 
"All of God's creation is beautiful."
I tried so hard to believe that but no, I simply couldn't. 


and I'm sorry.